to think about it…

I’ve always, alwaysss wanted to reach that stage.
But I’m never good enough, am i?
Only shine -sometimes- when I’m in an “inferior”pool.. But if that’s the case…

Whats the point then?

The irony

It’s not worth it because, once you’re out of the race,
you’ll never have the chance to be heard again.

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH PI! LIKE, FINALLY. HAHA SO HAPPY.
Even if there’ll still be modifications, I’m pretty confident they’ll be minor. Ah, PI have been irritating. Drafts after drafts after drafts. So far, I’ve done a total of 6 drafts for PI alone! Sheesh. AND AND, so much for complaining. I still have a long way to go before this whole PW shit ends. D:

And eh! I just figured out a good, intelligent way to have a diet- to play your instrument whenever you’re hungry. I’m not kidding! And by instrument, i meant wind instruments. Because I realized, almost every time after band pracs or sectionals, i feel very full. HAHA. I’m serious! You should try this method out also ok!

Yay!

whenimwithyoui’llmakeeverysecondcountcosi’llmissyouwhenyou’renotaround

All the way til the 7th

I believe in memories; they look so, so pretty when I sleep.

SYF soundcheck at TRCC earlier. Totally reminds me of Opus.07 and SIBF 2008. And after the soundcheck, apparently, the bus that was supposed to send us back to school broke down. Yup. We were practically stuck there for about, almost an hour? Whatmore in an old bus. Yes, yes. The budgetness of my school. Let’s hope the bus won’t break down on SYF day, or we’ll be late. We obviously can’t afford to minus points due to all these unnecessary problems. D:

Oh yay! I’ll be meeting my dear BFF and Ah Rong tomorrow to catch 17 Again! (: HAPPY. Hehe. Oh, don’t mind me. School has been really time consuming, and really tiring, too. I totally need a break, can? Haiyo. Hahaha. There’s like, Malay Lit test and Maths Binomial test tomorrow. Great, just great. What a way to start the week. -.-”’

This is random, but I always have and always will love Honey Stars. I think that it’s like, the best cereal ever la. Oh, i love Kelogg’s Cornflakes, and Waffles Crisp, too. But nothing can beat my love for Honey Stars. And the original, mind you! Hahaha. Despite being half pink, i dont quite like the Milky Strawberry Honey Stars (whatever you call it). Not as nice as my Honey Stars. Which is pretty much a disappointment, because since it’s pink i expected a higher standard out of it.

Nevertheless,
Whoever who created the Honey Stars recipe was a genius.

And things can really get kind of stressful at times, especially when it comes to making choices. The fear of making wrong ones, or the ones that you’ll regret. The fear of not knowing what the snowball would be.

But I’m not worried, because I believe am not alone.

Thinking of you

You said move on. Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know.

Silver moon’s sparkling

There’s no school tomorrow thanks to Good Friday!
yayness. From now on, I am very thankful for even a single day of school/public holiday. Yes. Okay fine, it’s not exactly a holiday since I have PI and essays to complete, nevertheless, at least I can get some good rest. It shall be a nice long weekend for me. Hoho.

Oh wait, no, it’s not a long weekend since I have band rehearsal to attend on Saturday.
25 more days to SYF. Wow. Time flies huh. Nevermind that.

Anyways, anyways. Tuesday, 7th April 2009, was indeed one of the most blissful days ever! (for me, of course). After school, I was in a total rush. I went home, showered, and was practically “baiting” my mum to allow me to see the love of my life, David Archuleta, despite having school & Econs essay test the next day. After much persuasion, I was allowed to go! HAPPY.:D

So yes, I headed down to Iluma(sounds familiar? HAHAHA Inside joke. HAHA) Shopping Center at Bugis. I was of course, lost on the way there. So much for being a geography student. But, that’s not the point. The point is, I saw my love right there, on stage, alive, all adorable, and singing with his beautiful voice!

I was totally ECSTATIC. So ecstatic i almost cried with tears of joy (HAHA JOKE). The whole shopping center was filled with vast of my love’s fans on each level. At that point of time, i seriously wished i was tall because I could see nothing! Pfft. Haha. I didnt give up, of course. BFF and I were searching for any opportunity of space to squeeze in so that we could have a good view of him. And indeed, we succeeded. Woohoo.

Too bad I didnt manage to shake hands with him since I didnt get the CD. But its okay. Seeing him from a good view was blissful enough, really. Oh, happy happy happy. Plus, despite being already all cute and adorable in photos, he looked much much better in real life! OH MY GOODNESS.

I HEART ARCHIE.
HEH.

XOXO

FOR MY DIANA BANANA. :)

A day in school with NURDIANA SAFARUDIN…

…& Dun Mi.

This is Dun Mi. I was tasked to teach her how to read. As you can see from Dun’s face, it is indeed of total fierceness. But be fooled not, for behind those, er, black eyes, is the strong desire to learn. Hence, never judge a book by it’s cover.

It’s just a habit of hers to stare at people like that.
Within the 1.5 hours i had with her, I was beginning to get use to it.

Ahww. Poor Dun. She was on the verge of breaking down. Too depressed by the words in the passage that seemed ever so complicated to her. And me, being the best buddy ever, was there supporting her, telling her not to ever give up!

There’s Dun, freaked out by a new word. Yet again.

Dun is lovely. She makes me laugh all the time. I miss her already!

It was good

Don’t wonder why people go crazy;
wonder why they don’t.

While everyone was crying and feeling sad over the Silver, I really wished there was something I could do to enlighten them. But I was really helpless, because I myself knew how it feels like to be in their shoes. All I can say is, you guys did a good job, and you guys made all of the Alumnus who were there proud watching you guys perform your piece earlier. So don’t be disheartened ok! It was definitely a high Silver. (:

AND NARISA AMIRA BINTE JOHARI… I was so guilt-plus-panic-stricken that i couldnt contact you to wake you up this morning la!!! Haha. All that ran through my mind was, oh crap, why can’t i freaking get through her? -.- Hahaha.

AND EH. It was very interesting to be in Mr Tan’s car because the roof of his car is like, a see through glass window pane (whatever you call it)! Hahaha. Hence, it made the car look bigger. It’s amazing, how such things can affect us psychologically; the way we think about things. Like, if you were to enter a small room full of mirrors, or a small room painted in white (and white only), chances are you will feel as if the room is much bigger than it actually is.

OKAY, I know, boring. But what do you expect? I have no life now. ):

Sometimes i wonder if i made the wrong decision.
I dont think this way all the time la. Just sometimes only…

haiya. watoodo.

exhaustion

Three things;

I AM GLAD TOMORROW’S TIMETABLE ENDS AT 1.10.

I HATE THE FACT THAT TOMORROW’S FIRST PERIOD IS PE LESSON.

I AM THOROUGHLY EXHAUSTED BY BAND. (both mentally and physically)

Band is really really really really really tiring for some reason. I just have this tired feeling whenever i attend band rehearsals. Probably because there’s almost nothing to look forward to except for Polovtskian Dances and some of my bandmates. Oh, perhaps my new clarinet too. Other than that, blahh. Almost nothing feels like home, still.

35 more days. I wonder what the outcome would be.
Not yellow, maybe not even grey, perhaps brown?
urgh whatever.

Things are only horrible and dreadful because I allowed myself to see it this way. Mindset mindset. I have to force myself to adapt. I can’t forget the changes I’ve set myself to follow and to accomplish. I’m getting it. I will not lose it.

Geography is indeed, the master of all subjects. Or so, it seems.