optimism;

the faith that leads to achievement(s).

Just when you think the road is going nowhere,
just when you almost gave up all your dreams,
they take you by the hand and show you that you can; everything will be ok.

After hours of tears, lamentation and self pity, I’ve decided that things aren’t as bad as it seems after all. To think about it again, I actually feel quite excited for the challenges ahead. I’ve always set high standards for myself anyway. Oh, and since I’m not on the other side, I shall make things as green as possible on this side. I mean, might as well lar. Haha. Besides, I pretty much know where I stand, still. So it’s really okay. HEH. *thumbs up*

YAY! Tomorrow’s the “last” day of school before June holidays (FINALLY!), and today’s my favourite day of the week: Thursday. And Thursdays meant short, happy days. Especially since Mrs Leow was unable to make it for GP lesson. Muahahaha.

We got our results slip for the term already. I did reasonably well, I guess? Haha. Although I must say, I’m a wee bit disappoint with Malay Lit’s results. It’s okay though. I’ll just practice more Malay literature essays and I’m sure I’ll manage to pick up the skills along the way.

Oh, by the way, the Malay immersion trip has been canceled! I’m not disappointed about this or whatever. I mean, Malaysia is having H1N1 virus right now, and the risk is there. Furthermore, it’s just Malaysia; I’ve been there for so many times already. Not much to be missed I guess. Hahahaha.

Right now, at this very moment, I am feeling rather hungry, and I really cant wait for Saturday to come. Hopefully I’ll make up my ever-so-fickle-mind by then.

GP & H1 Malay language block test tomorrow.
All ze best!

Xoxo, N

it’s just that…

This week has been exhausting. No idea why.

Lessons never felt so long, and I’ve never felt this broken about anything before.
Now, before anyone assume, it’s just another story that’s hard to be told, for only few will understand. YOU probably won’t understand this plight either. I’m just too tired to even think of points for my GP essay right now. What more for Friday.

And today, I’ve learnt that we should always expect the unexpected. Never, ever, ever should we be satisfied with our current achievements, for we still have a long way to go. We should always accept changes, for the only thing in life that doesn’t change, is change.

This is not about what I am, but who I am.

And now… it’s a different story altogether.

aldrin

babies are awesome.
*thumbs up*

damn cute la! mygoodness.
i wish for my son in the future to be like him.

PS. Starring Aldrin, bff’s new cousin.

♥my favourite, one and only bff (:

Credits to Hafiz for the photos.

Our friendship is as close as closest sisters,
two flutes with a single melody,
Interchanging runs through changing vistas,
notes like birds alighting on a tree.
To some, friends are like books upon a shelf;
yet you, to me, are like another self.
This music will not stop for other misters,
nor will it pause for princes, real or elf.
However life may wend, we will be we.

Happy 17th birthday, my beloved & favourite (one and only) BFF! Hahaha. Hope you liked the cake. It was a contribution from Hafiz, Wen Rong, Nate, Li Wen, Diana, Boon, and myself. IT WAS PINK. Our colour, bebeh. Hahaha. And of course, i hope you liked the BFF necklace I bought for you as a symbol of our friendship. Kay, not liked, loved. HEH. I love you my dear ama chezbom. Thanks for always being there for me, and you know I’m always here for you, too. I hope this year will be a good year for you. Whatever it is, always remember i love you alot alot alotttt! Hahaha.

Love, Sal. (:

ain’t no sunshine

Started believing that I could be wrong,
but you gave me one good reason to fight and never walk away.

It’s not warm when you’re away. Take care, my love.

Injustice- in my opinion

READ THIS.

Boy, 3 year old, beaten til brain dead

AN UNEMPLOYED man repeatedly punched the face and slammed the head of his girlfriend’s three-year-old son against the door frame, causing him to suffer a head injury.

For three days, Firdaus Abdullah, 27, turned his rage on Muhammad Izzul Salihin Muhammad Farzid whenever the boy cried.

On the day he slammed the boy’s head, he had also grabbed, shaken and bit his genitals. Two days earlier, he had forcefully hit the child’s head with his fist when he kept crying and refused to let him towel dry him.

The boy was certified brain-dead on Jan 18 last year – four days after he was taken to KK Women’s and Children’s Hospital where he died. He was found with multiple injuries of varying ages on his face, head, trunk, limbs, abdomen, genitals and back. There was widespread bleeding in the eyes.

Firdaus was originally accused of murder, but was subsequently charged with causing grievous hurt and ill-treating the child between Jan 12 and 14 last year.

The court heard that Firdaus and the boy’s mother were in a romantic relationship. He moved in to stay with them at Jalan Minyak off Chin Swee Road around the middle of 2007 after her husband had moved out.

The prosecution said Firdaus was jealous of his girlfriend for being closer to her son than to him. Most of the time, the couple argued over the boy, who became more attached to his mother and would cry and wanted to come along with his mum whenever she went out.

In December 2007, Firdaus’ temper worsened and he became easily frustrated, stressed out and impatient with the toddler.

After a nine-day trial, District Judge F.G. Remedios convicted Firdaus and sentenced him to a total of seven years’ jail and 12 strokes of the cane, for what he described as a ‘very savage attack on a defenceless child” which led to his death.

Firdaus could have been jailed for up to seven years and caned for grievous hurt. Under the Children and Young Persons Act, he could have been fined up to $4,000 and/or jailed for up to four years on each of the two charges.

This is FUCKING CRAZY. (!!!)
Pardon me, but there’s one thing I cannot stand in this world: and that is child abuse. What the hell. You’re a freaking 27, GROW UP DAMN IT. Just because you’re jealous?! Urgh. He freaking punched that kid til his own knuckles swell! Ohmygoodness. Poor kid, he passed away without even waking up. ): then again, he’s definitely in a better place now, insyaAllah.

That’s it. I really want to do Child Abuse for my PW already. I’LL FIND EVERY REASONS TO SHOW IT’S A FUTURE EMERGENCY. (!!!) Hahahahaha.

On a brighter note…

…I thought Adam Lambert’s performace tonight was awesome.
Way to go Lambert. But I loved Kris Allen’s reindition of Ain’t No Sunshine. Hahaha. Oh well, may the best man win. Not like i follow up on American Idol also.

Archie’s still the best eh. :):)

insomniac

You think you know, but you have no idea.

So here I am, taking a break from GPP. Yesterday was probably the most horrible(HA! exaggerated) GP/PW lesson ever. We found out it was Mr Woo’s last day teaching us. It was so abrupt; what is it with YJ? The other time the same thing happened to Ms Tang too, but fortunately, she got back her job. I can just predict how bleak GP lessons are going to be, especially after hearing rumors that our new GP teacher isn’t very nice. I’m going to miss Mr Woo’s leniency.

On a brighter note, The Uninvited is a good movie! It was quite scary at some point, yes. But the plot was very interesting! Hahaha.

June holidays are coming! 2 more weeks! YAYYY. HAPPY.
Things to look forward to in June:
1) Collection of special and bursary award ( a total sum of 650 bucks. YESSAH!)
2) SHOPPING. HEHEH.
3) Immersion trip (hmmm….)
4) OPus concert
5) Days without lectures and tutorial classes to attend to. awesome.
6) My birthday *hint hint* HAHA

However, i realized that, after June, life would be bleak. Block test during first week of July, and then there’s MTL A levels oral (in which, i’m pretty sure I’m going to die. Shit. I hate conversing in malay), PW gets worst, promos, MTL A levels… oh, goodness.

Not like i have a choice anyway. I shall and will win this battle.
Hahahaha.

dearly beloved

Met my PW girls for GPP at J8 in the early afternoon. Ah, I just want to get PW over and done with, seriously. Unfortunately, that won’t happen till the end of the year. Oh well.

After which, met up with BFF.

Celebrated Happy Mother’s Day with my beloved mum. Sis and I bought her a mother’s day cake! It is, of course, non other than pink in color.

I am indeed blessed with so many wonderful things in life.
I should really start doing my homework. Like, NOW.

Xoxo, N.

It’s your heart of gold

that i love the best; the most glorious part of you.
And honestly, I’m just very surprised at this love that has developed silently.

JUST when i thought I’ll be having free long weekends, workload came piling up earlier. D: Haiya, I should’ve known better already, shouldnt I? Hahaha.

And to be honest, it totally SUCKS to come home, and have people to nag at you the very first thing. Nag nag nag nag nag. I just can’t stand being home sometimes. And i definitely can’t stand having to stay home and BABYSIT on the only free day that, mind you, comes only once in while, for me to hang out. Goodness!

Hmm. Apart from that, today, was a very good day. I was on an “all-smiles” mode the whole day. Hehe. I do not know what was it that made me so happy, but I just was. I FEEL GOOOODDD TODAY! HAHA. And alumni rehearsal was pretty good, especially for Old Churches. I still find the mumbling parts weird though, but when i heard the recording at youtube, i realized it’s actually very solemn, sad, and even scary at some parts. Haha.

Princess Diaries’ Michael Moscovits is CUTEE. AHAHAHA.
But of course, noone can ever win Chace Crawford aka. Nathaniel Archibald’s handsome, hot looks. Hohoh.

AHHHHHHHH!!!! :):)

And well, my message for you is a little solemn. I know it’ll take more than a miracle for an F&F. History, i would never have expected that. I hope that this year, you will prosper in the many areas that you are meant to do well in. I wish you confidence, optimism and love. Let your good heart take over you always, not the impatient side, the side that always demand for things to go your own away.Take good care of the people around you, and always remember your purpose here. Happy birthday, my love (that, of course, never changes, no matter what happens).
goodnight everyone.

with heart and voice

OUCCHHH!
My foot are hurting due to blisters. Silly court shoes!

Silver for SYF.

It was predictable. Like a, “duh” kind of thing. When it was announced, i didnt feel happy, nor sad. Just content, perhaps? Whatever it was, I wasnt bothered much by the results. Oh, I’m just glad I did well. Or at least, that’s what people say. Haha. On a whole, today was indeed the best performance for the whole band. And thank you Bird, for coming down to support me. I was quite sad that BFF and Honey weren’t able to get the tickets as they had lessons to attend. D: but, nevermind that.

Past few days haven been pretty relaxing. For some reason i know not of, there werent much tutorials to be done. In fact, i dont remember having to do any tutorial at all. HEHEE. And tomorrow’s friday! Means weekends are near. I’m so so glad there’s school hols on Monday. AWESOME. I shall continue to relax while i can. Hohoh.

I dont have much to update about. There’s only 2 Bs that describe my life right now – Busy, and Boring. OH WELL.

And dearly beloved, you’re like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into my heart.